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(Click by a friend) Birthdays are fun! And when it is turning one, can it be more special? I am so overjoyed by seeing how this curious, naive kid came out of his closet. His small crawls, gradual walks found a steady pace. The extreme infinities and the endless possibilities overwhelmed him, still he found his space. His immature words found their rhythm and obediently turned into phrases. Yes thoughts from the mind started the long talks. Sometimes they fought, so much so that they avoided all the contact, but, soon enough caught up over a cup of coffee. The long interesting gossips made for the lost time. The times of joy, those sad moments or those excitements, my words have always stood for me. They made sure I am never left alone. Indeed, I need them more than I could think of. I need them to shake me out of my imaginary world and get in terms with the reality. I need them not just because they are my weakness, but because, they are my greatest strengths. They ma...

Prisoners. That's right. It is what we are. Prisoners of thought. Prisoners of action. Prisoners of words. Prisoners of society. Prisoners of faith. Of all the religions, pressures and the games. There are so many threads which bind us. Something or the other, pulls us back. Whenever we decide to go beyond our comfort zone, that little panic is always there to see that we go right back. Some words, some situations or some memories make sure we don't move on. There is this unknown fear which always keeps us engulfed, keeps our mind occupied, so much so that, we start getting confused. The reality seems so unreal, so unsure and so uncertain that we are too much overwhelmed to respond or to interact. We get scared of the unknown. Try to figure out the solutions, all are in vain. Too much vulnerable, indeed. We stop living. Literally. Forgive. Forget. Move ahead. That's all is required.

(From a shared post on Facebook) And here it is, a fresh new year! All eager to note the events on the timeline. It's a trigger to start something new, something better, something worthwhile. A whole new set of endless possibilities, whole new chapters, await. I know, we all have had an epic year. Some of it was tragic, some of it worth forgetting while some part was sheer fun. Remember? Wise. Crazy. Happy. Sad. Excited. Enthusiastic. Stupid. Overwhelmed. Frustrated. Awestruck. Whatever! We all have been like that at some point, right? There were times when we were real helpless, but, we found out our way back. We managed to pull up our chin and smile broad. And knowingly or unknowingly we have done something good, for others and also for ourselves. So, pat your back! New friends joined hands while some left. Some were reunited while some were always there. Meanwhile, we contemplated! A little grown up, aren't we? So, here's wishing the new year to be mor...

Oct 13 2013, Dusherra! Today I booked a ticket for India! Home! Enough said, isn't it? This would be my first visit back home after shifting here. You bet, I am ecstatic! Strangely, I wasn't so much excited as I am right now just by the thought of going home. It has been just ten months that I am here, was never going to return so soon, but then all of a sudden, had this feeling - need to be there, need to go, and I just booked the ticket! Yeah, was so much apprehensive before booking it, firstly because was using a friend's card, then, wasn't sure will I do it properly, as everyone knows how careless I am! I am still not sure, whether I am doing it right or not, whether I should really go or not, yeah, the money matters, but sometimes I guess, some things hold much more meaning and it is better to let some things go. If it has to happen, it will happen. No superstitions or something, I believe that at a certain point all pieces fall in their respe...

They were sitting motionless on the extreme edges of the sofa, unable to digest what just happened. Speechless. He was staring into the infinity and her tender eyes were filled with volumes of tears more than they could carry.  Why? How?  Was it necessary? Wasn't there a way out? Where did it really go wrong?  Was it so sudden? Was it unexpected? They thought together. *** She was reading his favorite novel at the place where they first met. He bought his Irish Coffee (non-alcoholic), she had always loved that hazel nut flavor. Just when he was about to go around his seat, he noticed the book and the face buried deep inside it. A glance of the same innocent look that he has always held dear. Yes, they still visit their place. Should I go to sit with her and have a little talk? Is it still okay to ask about her well-being? Will it be alright to pull the strained nerves, yet again? It won't be that easy to let go, once again. I cannot see ...

एक क्षण हवा हवासा, मनातील सुप्त भावना अलगद उलगडणारा, जराशीही ठेच लागताच मायेनी हात पकडणारा, अशक्य असं वाटणाऱ्या संवेदनांना एका क्षणात आपलंसं करणारा, फक्त शब्दच नव्हे तर अबोलाही समजणारा, आणि हास्यालाच नव्हे तर आसवांनाही न डगमगणारा. एन उमेदीच्या काळात पाय जमीनीत घट्ट रोवून धरणारा, एकट्यात कधीही साथ न सोडणारा. फक्त माझ्यासाठीच असा असलेला तो सहवास. अचानक आनंद देऊन जाणारा असा एक सुखद आभास.

"We cannot change our past. We cannot change the fact that people act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude."   - Charles R. Swindoll Be it seasons, situations, thoughts, people, relations, places, almost every other thing changes, the only constant being you. So many times we fear the changes. But why? Change is inevitable and almost everything comes with an expiry date. We fear to accept this fact and forget to move on. We cling on to the people. We cling on to the memories. Even if people have hurt us, even if the memories were not worth remembering, we hold them to our heart, silently praying that it was all false. In this process we get so dependent on the memories that we fear to be alone. We fear to be independent again. Unknowingly we fear the unknown. And within moments we get apprehensive and scared of the next phase. Isn't it something we all shoul...